This is supposed to be an anonymous blog. I have another wordpress blog and if you know it then that’s cool. If you’d like to know what my other blog is, just ask. I created this one so I’d have somewhere to talk about my depression in greater detail. And because I let someone see […]
i’ve become increasingly afraid of ending up alone. i don’t know how i’m going to do things by myself. the other day i went to get dinner to bring back home. i was awkward and weird and i wanted to go home the whole time i was getting food. felt really ugly and stupid when […]
there’s a song called “androgyny” by Garbage that begins like this: “when everything is going wrong and you can’t see the point in going on nothing in life is set in stone there’s nothing that can’t be turned around.” i think about it a lot. i guess it makes me feel hopeful makes me wish […]
I’ve been worrying a lot at night lately i think about a lot of things–stuff happening now but mostly worried about what will happen in the future. i did some painting the other day. it took a lot longer than i first anticipated to do all the baseboards and around the windows. things look better […]
Most of today was good. breakfast was good. i felt alright but i didn’t do much i ate too much for dinner tonight i should have done a lot more stuff yesterday but i slept in the afternoon. watched a lot of episodes of this reality show called Black Ink Crew. No idea why i […]
things went ok today did nothing as usual and my stomach was hurting today because i’ve stupidly consumed about a half a gallon of milk in the past few days being “creative” the other night lead to 6 shit poems saw someone who used to be my neighbor at the store a few days ago she asked […]
can’t begin to put into words how angry i am this life is a fucking joke things just keep getting worse nothing is working out fucking can’t stand people. and i fucking hate myself
i don’t know what to do why am i so fucking stupid?