This is supposed to be an anonymous blog. I have another wordpress blog and if you know it then that’s cool. If you’d like to know what my other blog is, just ask. I created this one so I’d have somewhere to talk about my depression in greater detail. And because I let someone see […]

I still haven’t heard anything from him yet. There’s nothing i can do. My thing is no one is so busy that they can’t type “y” or “n”. Going to wait until saturday. If he says nothing he’s deleted from everything. I’m sick of being here with the living. I’m sick of people saying how […]

Oh my God how do I atone? I don’t want to be this way anymore. I can’t live like this. People disrespect me left and right and send “lol” afterwards.   How can I get just one guy to care about me? Meanwhile the boyfriend for my so-called friend who barely says anything to me […]

hi all. I know it’s been a very long time since I wrote anything. well i feel i am backsliding where depression is concerned. I hit my limit the other day it seemed–an episode? Maybe you can call it that. I was so upset… i am fortunate enough to be able to see a therapist […]

i have no friends, i have very few skills,and i am worthless. well i realized this all over again today i don’t know what i’m supposed to do anymore. everyone i was talking to stopped talking to me. yesterday i had marked myself as “online” on skype. the one person who would talk with me for […]

these past few days I’ve had a headache. i keep forgetting to take this sleep medicine so i guess that’s the cause of the headaches. today i haven’t done much i did watch Hellboy. i will have to watch the last half hour again because i went to take a shower and missed that. i’ve […]

i think i said “i hate everything” at least 5 times today. i dont think i meant it really the only person who was talking to me consistently has stopped. so that’s great reluctant to try again it has been a bunch of bullshit so far in the 9 or 10 years that i have […]

what is the point of this medicine?? all of a sudden the muscles in my neck are so fucking sore and it is hard to sleep I hate myself Don’t know how i will finish this assignment i am supposed to do regarding self-esteem I have none so it is not easy to fill out some […]